January 19, 2017
Pretend you’re a baby and you’ve just exited the womb. You’ve spent the last nine months anticipating your arrival into a world you’ve heard yet have not seen, imagined yet have not envisioned, sensed yet have not experienced-– and suddenly you’re immersed, not necessarily by choice, but by the graces of circumstances beyond your earthly control. You’ve spent a great deal of time in the dark growing, expanding, flourishing despite the difficulties limbo brings; you now embody a blank slate, due to which the world may wholly impress itself upon you.
You’ve been a few places before, learned a few things, fought a few battles; the wisdom you now possess will guide you through experiences of this lifetime, wherein you may acquire even more knowledge. This knowledge will again, like it always has, contribute to the fundamentals of your personality, the foundations on which you continually build your identity, which already exists but you have yet to realize [the higher self has yet to be solidified]. You may not remember who you are right now, why you are right now, or even how you got to be this way, but you are exactly where you are meant to be, a product of everything you’ve ever been and everything you’ve ever become.
The ignorance you necessarily assume upon entering this world should not be mistaken for feebleness; you are highly complex despite your simplicity in thought, and quite tough despite your physical fragility. You mustn’t know who you are just yet, for such awareness would spoil the wonderment with which you now gaze upon the world, the awe that allows you to grasp life with all the might you can muster. You have died so that you could be born again with the same lust for opportunity you had in youths past; the highest version of you will learn to contrive a purist lens eternally.
Although wounds from existences former no longer manifest as such in the mind, their scars– rather, triumphs– subliminally manipulate your perceptions of now. These triumphs reside deep within the subconscious, the multi-faceted storehouse of information detailing past travels, wherein they serve as instigators to, and certainly solidifiers of, the higher self because you healed them at your lowest. If you were to access the subconscious you’d also realize where you ultimately came from, the source of the soul– i.e. “home-base”, the realm that compels you to strive for the most genuine version of you; all you have to do is dig deep enough in order to remember. You can get there once you desensitize yourself to the sentiments of the earth, the images and sounds that constantly impede your ability to merely exist. Your perceptions of the external will necessarily cease following your estrangement from “reality”, due to which you will be free to be, without any false renderings of identity that stem from the covert society.
In order to properly conceive of yourself throughout this lifetime, to connect with your spirit, wherein the connection to the otherworldly necessarily follows, you must face any demons that dwell within, those inversions of your higher being you so often strive to avoid. Suppression induces detachment from emotion, and with that, detachment from the self; the darkening of the earthly soul inevitably follows, as does a severe lack of self-love, for light is synonymous with identity– real identity, those higher qualities and their sentimental attributes that comprise whole-fulfillment. Your relationship with you not only suffers at the hands of suppression, which takes on many forms, both internal (avoidant behavior) and external (normative behavior); connecting to others requires emotion, connecting to life requires emotion, connecting to to the external via internal connectivity requires the capacity to emote. Human beings are spiritual beings because they thrive off of love and succumb to disorder when love is absent.
But you must learn to love for the right reasons.
If you are to grow, you mustn’t do so for anyone but you. This is your journey we’re talking about; don’t identify with the ideologies of the masses, identify with yourself. True connectivity will follow. The Soul relies not only on unification to function, but the individual strength of its parts; thus, by envisioning who you wish to be– indeed, who you already are– you will formulate an identity that, in its most authentic form, will coincide with the highest version of you, your whole soul, as well as all others– the source of which compels you to live this one individual life in a sequence of many.
The more you live, the more you are, if only because you become closer and closer to who you are. It doesn’t really matter who you’re meant to be, it’s where you want to go; your path will change as you do, but it will always arrive at the same destination.
You are only as real as your strength in your reality.