December 16, 2016
It has occurred to me lately that most people in this country have a problem with food.
Where did I come up with such a decisive statement? Well, I looked around at my friends, family, acquaintances, and the public; at commercials, in the media, magazines, and on YouTube (vegan haven); in documentaries and all over the internet, where various platforms feature personal accounts of food obsession. I have also observed this theme within my memory, where I can recollect on my own odd relationship with the daily necessity/pleasure, as well as recall conversations I’ve had with those around me featuring their past and present eating disorders, incongruities, and compulsions.
Whether the problem is over-consumption, under-consumption, or poor food selection, it seems as if everyone is fighting their bodies- if only to manifest the image of themselves they regard as desirable, optimal, perfect (whilst simultaneously avoiding coping with the awry).
And why is that? Why do we focus so much time, energy, and mental work on a mode of self-expression as superficial and inconsequential as our appearance, when fully embodying the light within the soul, striving for the highest form of the self merely requires modifying the internal? Surely The Soul does not care about (and in fact perpetuates) the symmetry of our noses, our ability to fit into a size-2 pair of pants, and how much self-control we possess in the presence of “evil” pleasures (refined sugar is evil because the shit-food industry knowingly promotes our addiction; all the while, raw vegan desserts nourish your mind and body).
The simple answer: because society will have us believe we are only valuable if we conform to spirituality-suffocating standards of worth, suffocating if only because these standards completely neglect the beauty within- namely, our propensity to spread light around. (That darned society!! Always making us value stuff that has no moral basis. Maybe we should all start thinking for ourselves…).
Restrictive norms of desirability lead to conflict- conflict between an individual and the ideologies of the masses, as well as within the mind and body. Suppressed emotion aids in this strife.
The body asks one thing of you, and in return it will serve you as best as it possibly can given your genetics, experiences, life path and all it is meant to encompass: that you respect it.
Yes, that’s all your body wants, and all it will ever want so that it may ensure your heart keeps beating, your neurons keep firing, and you keep immersing yourself in the many sensory pleasures of life.
But before you shame yourself for your past or current relationship with food, know this: you are not the reason you currently abuse your body.
You are not the reason you currently abuse your body.
Your vital force- i.e. the sum of your body and mind, preferably in a homeostatic state- has likely been disharmonized by trauma, trauma you have surely experienced as not only a physical being, but a sentient being in this very imperfect world. You are made of so many layers, layers that often evade your cognizance because you have been taught to recognize only one of them: the conscious, the present, the immediate perceptions of the intellect. But another facet exists underneath that layer, and it makes itself known in your dreams, in your impulses, and through your trauma. The subconscious is itself multifaceted, however more fluid in structure than the totality of the mind; here we find a complex of motives, both soul-feeding and soul-suffocating, that reflect trauma, as well as manifest out of it (including that which has been derived from recollections of former lives; you are always learning, and always elevating, if you so choose).
Your job is to weed out, and furthermore derive, the good from the bad. But in order to do so, you must first embrace awareness, from which you may negate all influences- internal or external, and quite often a mixture of the two- that have incited the self-destruction you have allowed for. Trauma can only enslave you with your consent, and will enslave you less and less as you build your defenses. Your past has the power to create tendencies within that may not otherwise exist- but they’re meant to exist, for you are not only comprised of light, you are comprised of light that has arisen out of darkness. Your strength must be realized through your turmoil- really, the only avenue to solidifying the higher self- for the whole soul has procured awareness of, and furthermore conquered, all threats to homeostasis- all triggers to the lesser being. The whole soul cannot be swayed, coerced, or intimidated. If you disregard the opportunity to incarnate the higher in ignorance (of the means through which you may manifest), in fear (of coping), or in forbearance (growth requires your cooperation, and furthermore, intention), unacknowledged sentiments will take on a virulent form within the subconscious, subtly manipulating your thoughts and actions whilst simultaneously inviting more undesirable energy into your life. Lesser qualities, and the disorder that heightens them, self-fulfill; negative behaviors sustain physical ramifications of trauma, which then reinforce self-destruction. Thus, if you are to relinquish all dependency on external influences, on all behaviors that do not serve you well, you must recognize that your utmost welfare depends on awareness, of the negative and the positive. Negativity, including the lower self, is done onto the soul, for it is only temporary on the path to whole-fulfillment.
You may not understand why you behave you do, or even that your behavior deviates from what it would otherwise be in a state of equilibrium; all the while, you could be happier, and should be happier had (necessary) trauma not hindered you- the product of which social ideology, as well as its dependency on external beauty, amplifies. Only awareness, on both micro and macro levels, incites progression toward, and solidification of, what really matters- not the external, not the societal, but the soulful: elevation of all, a propensity to ensure the welfare of all, as well as morality, wherein the suffering of all ceases. In all three cases, the needs of the subconscious and conscious have been harmonized first and foremost, from which the higher reigns supreme.
You were most certainly born free of addiction- to food, drugs, or any other vice commonly used amongst the population in an attempt to avoid coping with burdensome emotions. So let me ask you this: when did you start using food for happiness (or lack thereof; I can assure you any reliance on the external does not equate to living)? Did your addiction follow a particularly impactive experience? If you cannot recall what that experience may have been, or rather that your usage of food began at a very young age due to dietary choices made by your guardians, you can at least agree that chronic intake of toxic foods is itself physically traumatic. There is an origin to all disordered ways of eating, whether mild or severe in nature.
All the body asks is that you nourish it; a fully-strengthened vital force will not chronically crave refined sugar, processed, or fried, fatty foods, even if an innate propensity to indulge exists. The body wants to thrive and so it will incite the mind to provide it with nourishment, that which will allow it to maintain homeostasis. Similarly, a baby does not consume more milk than is desired by the body because trauma has yet to thwart its affiliation to the mind. When this connection is harmonized, the mind will abide by the body’s wishes the majority of the time (save a few cases of really good food, the occasional over-consumption of alcohol, or recreational drug usage) because the mind will naturally want to fulfill the body’s needs.
Thus, the connection between the mind and the body must be dismantled at some point in order to incite a cycle of self-destruction.
Consider a coke-head. This coke-head is, obviously, addicted to coke, in that ze is compelled to snort it consistently. Ze loves coke because ze always does coke; if coke had never been done in the first place, perhaps because depression due to external circumstances- or even an invincibility/curiosity complex- had never instigated the desire for a pick-me-up, the mind would be happy without it. In either case, the depressed mind craves more because the usage of the drug is traumatic in and of itself; previous mental trauma compounds this fate, through which perpetual suppression ensures homeostatic mechanisms are never restored. The cycle of addiction has now begun, and melancholia settles in when the coke is absent; the substance is then treated as necessary. If the cycle is broken and the mind restored, it will no longer desire the vice that harms the body. The vital force will harmonize once again.
Food, however, is a little trickier. When trauma induces addiction, the cycle cannot merely be broken by quitting “cold turkey” because you need that turkey (just kidding, you need plants) to survive. In mild cases, veganism may restore faulty mechanisms within on its own. Severe cases will require homeopathy or other forms of natural healing.
If you crave food when you are not hungry, if you chronically desire to eat past full, if you constantly yearn for foods you know will not benefit the body, your vital force is disharmonized- point-blank. You are not your addiction, and no one has an “addictive personality”, except to the sentiments of their trauma. Have you ever felt this weird urge to keep eating something unhealthy when you don’t really want it? Have you ever binged, even though you stopped wanting to eat hundreds of calories ago? Both are classic signs of pathogenic overgrowth; you are led by compulsions that do not reflect your needs. You must not trust the mind when it constantly defies the laws of nature- nourishment, that is. Here are a few examples of past trauma that may have induced your “food problem”:
- At age 13 you followed the meal-plan (likely 1200 calories at most per day) of a major fashion magazine in order to “get skinny fast”. You really wanted to look like the model on the front cover.
- You drank lemon water and cayenne for 3 months to “cleanse”.
- You’ve never recovered from a heavy break-up; since then, you reach for an entire container of Bette Crocker Artificially-Flavored Chocolate Frosting when you feel like drowning your sorrows (and feeding your Candida).
- You have an absent mother or father, in which you harbor feelings of betrayal.
- You really like uppers, including Adderall. Now you never have an appetite, or you consciously use it to suppress your appetite, a premise that likely originated from another trauma itself.
- You think you can only manage your anxiety with Xanax (which does wonders for the digestive tract).
- You got really sick in 8th grade after eating Mexican food (that one’s me).
- You have a history of eating-disordered behavior.
- You were underweight for an extended period of time or you’re underweight right now. You may think about food a little more than you’d like to because your body is begging for it.
To clarify, the cycle of damage and addiction looks like this:
- An event impacts you heavily, either physically, mentally, or both (your parents divorce, you split from your first love, you get really sick with food poisoning, you go on the pill, you take antibiotics, your dog dies, etc.)
- Disorder in one front is reflected within the other (if something physically traumatic happens to you, it will alter your mind. If something mentally/emotionally traumatic happens to you, it will alter mechanisms within the body). In both cases, trauma has left a lasting impression on vital force’s ability to maintain homeostasis.
- If you are predisposed to digestive distress (perhaps due to genetics), or because your trauma has directly affected the digestive tract, your body will respond with food cravings. You may have blood sugar issues, cravings for sugar, cravings for processed foods, or cravings for fatty foods (which is likely a gallbladder problem, and more severe than a simple case of pathogenic overgrowth. Although, gut flora imbalances generally accompany any disruption in the function of digestive organs, for they perpetually detoxify). In any event, food has become a vice.
- The only way to eradicate your dependency on food is to restore the mental, the corporeal, or both at the same time- via homeopathy, self-work (healing your mind will heal your body), or, in mild cases, by overhauling your diet. Eradicating sources of inflammation in either front will assuage inflammation in the other (inflammation in the gut does lead to mental distress!!). I can assure you, whether you feel that you are “depressed” or not, a depressed body- a dysfunctional body- will equate to a depressed mind. I was perfectly happy in high school, but I could still eat a whole cake. When the corporeal assumes a homeostatic state, it will not effect self-destructive mentalities to any degree, nor will the mind rely on food for any level of happiness beyond its capacity to nourish! Ergo, you could be happier!!
Underlying every usage of food as a vice is motive. How many young women and men possess eating disorders? A lot. How many suffer due to faulty mechanisms within the body and/or mind? All. Some eat to displace their depression, their inability to experience life like they used to; others avoid eating or restrict certain foods to maintain control. If you find yourself identifying with some of the complaints listed here, you may not feel fulfilled by life or have anything to look forward to, so you turn to food to displace your discontent. You may suffer from pathogenic overgrowth due to past struggles, and now crave sweets like a madperson. Any way you look at it, you are not to be ashamed of your “food addiction”, or even your sugar cravings. You are a victim of multiple money-making industries (here we go again 😉 ); not only does Big Pharma want you sustainability ill, Little Debbie does too. She makes a big profit off of your muffin tops and insecurities; you binge on her toxic crap and then come back for more when you’re ashamed of your “weakness” (and because you’re still hungry; try some medjoolies instead). So when your trauma goes unaddressed or suppressed by allopathic medicine and escapist emotional tendencies, you may just find that you like the taste of crack- I mean, Twinkies- a little bit more than the body necessarily desires.
Essentially, we live in a system that:
- Feeds us shit from birth [sugar addiction occurs at a young age].
- Shames us when we eat like shit and fail to live up to image-driven standards of beauty [beauty resides within the soul].
- Stigmatizes us when our relationship with food enters disordered territory.