November 20, 2017
If there’s one phrase to describe the emotions that arise out of detoxifying* with homeopathy, it’s I’ve been here before.
In fact, maybe I should call this article, “Coming Back To Life Again”, or rather, “Who Am I? Certainly Not Who I Was In High School [because I feel better than that]”.
I revisit this concept over and over: you could be better than you are right now. Your body could be better, your mind could be better, your perception of life as we know it could be better–if only you knew this little gem called homeopathy existed amongst the slew of oppressive sentiments designed to keep us down, to keep us from reaching our highest selves, to keep us from lifting our spirituality to new heights, at which point we would surely find the gumption to live for the well-being of one another because we’re so elevated ourselves. But we don’t know these heights exist; we’re too preoccupied with the bullshit of social construction, wherein suppression is favored over healing, a propensity that itself arises out of institutions set in place to stifle our awareness of the beyond (and within) in order to direct power and profit to the elite. And who suffers due to this schema? We do. We spend our lives in a daze, veiled by a fog we can’t even see because we treat our perceptions as innate, fixed, the way they’re supposed to be. We shuffle through malls, both literal and figurative, yearning to embody the visions of ourselves we believe make us valuable; we focus on obtaining the funds we think indicate how far we’ve made it (how many modern-day pop culture songs reference “bitches” and “dollar bills” again? [I’m an old person]), when true accomplishment lies in the attainment of morality; we writhe in onerous mentalities induced by trying circumstances, ghosts of our former identities, when we could be so much lighter, brighter, free from the scourges of unaddressed malady–if only we knew how suffocated we are by imagery, misguided expectation, and indeed, the pharmaceutical industry, a perpetrator of unrectified disharmony in more ways than one. We are deliberately made to be ignorant, and this ignorance is blissful until you realize how much fulfillment lies in connecting with your subjugated self, to the means by which you purify, and ultimately, to the purest version of you (pure in the sense that you are precisely who you are meant to be). Once you’ve chosen the internal over the superficial, and the cathartic over the silencing, you’ll never want to go back, for aligning your conscious with the inner workings of your subconscious beats the effects of all drugs, material items, and false renderings of happiness. The forward motion–rather, emotions of healing will bestow you with trust in this fate.
*Even if you don’t seek homeopathy to actively restore your digestion, one could argue that real healing (and thus real dealing), by its very nature, detoxifies: the lower self is toxic, and is necessarily exacerbated in illness, or simply the state of disorder most people are perpetually in (think The Altered Personality). By restoring the capacity to wholly feel, to cope with our past traumas, we restore, and certainly bolser, the capacity to incarnate the higher. Regardless, it is likely that your remedy will detoxify you in one physical way or another, whether through elimination, your lymph nodes, the nasal cavity, or otherwise.
If you’re depressed, you’re emotionally detached. If you’re suicidal, you’re emotionally detached to the value of your life. If you’re anxious, you are reacting–by not reacting–to emotions you have yet to deal with, whether these sentiments arise out of disturbances to the mind (mental/emotional trauma) or the body (a disordered physicality will inevitably disorder the psyche). If you don’t suffer from any overt manifestations of a disturbed vital force, consider that you may be affected subliminally. This is perhaps the worst status to assume chronically, for the higher self is always veiled–in effect, dragged down–by a slightly-altered personality and thus treatment is never sought to restore equilibrium, the foundation on which morality advantageously evolves. These are the people we find afraid to leave their homes (or alternatively who leave their homes and never come back), who lack the motivation to accomplish anything and instead party their lives away, who use drugs or other vices to contrive the happiness (but never wholeness) that remains elusive within, who are perpetually angry and don’t know why, who wish they could feel as free as they did as a kid but assume negativity naturally arises out of old age. These are the people we need to help—our people, no matter the age, race, or country of origin–because negativity suffocates all of humanity, whether it has yet to truly touch an individual on the micro level or not. In either case, it spreads like wildfire: ideology to person, person to person, person to self (subconscious), and around again. Some are even sensitive to the collective unconscious, grappling with the pitfalls of humanity as if all the world’s adversities were their own. Unfortunately, negativity isn’t as simple as pessimism, nor the solution as smooth as “staying positive”; while a glass-half-empty outlook will surely inhibit self-actualization, even looking ahead but never behind, a form of emotional suppression in and of itself, grossly oversimplifies actually dealing. Only healing via natural care (rather, stimulative care; think homeopathic remedies) and self-induced elevation can vanquish suffering on the whole, as all become aware of what it means to heal and all become cognizant of what it means to feel. Note the usage of “all”: every one of us matters and every one of us deserves to experience the exhilaration of the total and utter contentment that should accommodate sheer existence, sentiments we seem to lose as we grow older. Even young souls that continuously disrupt the harmony of our unity are entitled to a chance, for it is not what they have done but what they could be doing that illuminates the flawed medical system by which our earthly selves routinely abide. But we can embody youthful sentiments once again; indeed, it is true. The “after” mentality following the usage of nature to restore equilibrium within another product of nature–you–is, in fact, ecstasy. As you begin to realize that this is the way things are meant to be, this is how greatly you can love, this is how wholly you could feel, you will not be able to avoid your connection to this earth, your spirituality, your innermost self, and the sense of purpose that necessarily follows.
Immediately after taking your remedy, you will begin to feel a little bit more whole, whether you have been suffering from anxiety, depression, a physical ailment or the mental woe one has caused. Wholeness naturally accompanies the return to your authentic self, free from the confines of disorder and the inner tension it fosters, which constantly beseeches the individual that holds it to look within and cope. This initial reaction to healing does not necessarily mean the emotions of your journey will be characterized by ease, even when you accept that you are journeying toward the most consummate version of you. Quite the contrary (!!!). If you tend to err on the sentimental side (or have stifled your emotions and consequently interpret life with pure intellect, a status your remedy will surely rectify), you will work through a multitude of provocative mentalities, driven by the uprooting of suppressed suffering, throughout the restorative process. Still, the progression toward order will prove no more difficult than the subjugation of disorder; you will feel stronger, and more like you, with a greater propensity to endure, too. When taking Ignatia, my heightened lower mentalities typically arose after I had eaten (a symptom associated with the Ignatia constitution; homeopathy works with the body to sustain, and further, mechanisms of restoration until the disorder no longer exists [we do not stuff up runny noses, but compel them to flow until homeostasis is maintained!]), and would last a few hours thereafter, save the days of full-on aggravation. I would go from feeling so low, especially during the earlier parts of my treatment, to sheer contentment once my body had won a fragment of the battle that aimed to regain control over the totality of my being. Once again, the journey toward homeostasis necessarily becomes easier over time. The rapid resurrection of your emotions may prove quite shocking, but such enlightened sentiments will also fill you with innumerable glee, by more than just their very nature: “Wholeness” not only equates to the restoration of the uninhibited identity, liberated from the bounds of trauma and all the turmoil that has surely accompanied it, but the return of magic, that awe-inspiring, lust-inducing, can’t-believe-this-is-real completeness we all deserve to feel.
Now, at this point you might begin to question the necessity in growth; after all, you fell ill due to an inability to cope, so what does it mean to heal? In Let Like Cure Like, McCabe writes, “Illness is a sign that the vital force is intact and is attempting to push whatever is blocking the self from the spirit [the higher] out of the body” (McCabe 20). That is, we are disturbed because our vital forces have been made defunct by a forceful impact–a challenge, if you will–whether we got sick purely from a broken heart or a deadly parasite. In both cases, we were susceptible because we had yet to learn how to overcome such afflictions [the higher self had yet to be solidified]. Physical ineptitudes reflect mental insufficiencies, as the vital force is predisposed to, and tends to express, disorder in a figurative, almost poetic way*. Even communicable diseases require a deficiency in the constitution first and foremost, a propensity to suffer from a certain blow to homeostasis, which explains why one person may contract an STD from nir infected partner while another will not. Similarly, a child totally confident in nemself will not become disordered from the hostilities of a bully, but a fearful one might. Without the irritabilities, frustrations, self-doubt, over-analyses, criticisms, cravings for reassurance, yearnings for approval, etc. that accomodate mild to severe depressions and anxieties, we often don’t know what we have to work on. Our elevated qualities come easily in a state of harmony; when we say life has yet to test us, we mean it has yet to test our lower selves. Interestingly, it seems our lower selves are only ever inversions of our higher nature, for as soulful beings, they never can be purely “evil”. Rather, our lesser qualities, when made visible, when made exacerbated by said afflictions, ensure the certainty of the virtues of our character, so long as we heal–after which we are no longer blocked from the purity of our souls, and no longer susceptible to being blocked via the same avenue, the same attribute turned mechanism of self-destruction.
The unwavering higher self denotes true personal (earthly) growth, authentic immaterial (soulful) evolution, unthwartable self-love on both planes, and all the connectivity that follows. Actively living through, as opposed to passively avoiding, the mental tribulations associated with restoring harmony will strengthen you, drawing you closer to the spiritual realm that guides you, the safe-haven, the comfort, the constancy of its values. You can, of course, choose to ride your lower self out (you will still heal), but you can also pinpoint the source of your discontent in order to prevent it from harming you in the future [the higher self will be solidified]. Conquering your lesser traits is also so satisfying, and quite profound when you consider the time you spent in darkness, surely bringing others down with you, whether you meant to or not…
*Phosphorus, for example, is subject to a certain suddenness of physical symptoms: sudden inflammations, sudden sweats, sudden pains, sudden hunger, etc., reflecting the quick-to-react mentals characterized by a sensitivity to external impressions, the surrounding “vibes” of a room and people in it, as well as nir own emotions, which Phosphorus expresses readily.
BUDDING SPIRITUALITY, PROOF (?)
Homeopaths are not always intensely spiritual, but considering that nature has evinced substances that when in their homeopathic form correspond to living constitutions, the presence of some invisible law cannot be denied. I’m not merely referring to the “natural” argument here, nor am I consequently flaunting a naturalistic fallacy (I do believe the former can be refined to justify without fault); rather, groups of traits, mental, emotional, and physical in essence, are found in people and animals alike without genetic kinship. We are all comprised of multiple constitutions, or remedy types, which have specific personality profiles–and physical profiles, in sickness and in health–associated with them. Furthermore, these constitutions don’t always seem to comprise our overall personas at a 1:1:1 ratio, but I can only speculate from my own experiences… In any event, someone with Phosphorus as nir “predominant” constitution will not only look like another Phosphorus constitution, who could be halfway across the world and immersed in a culture totally unlike nirs, ne will evince disorder the same way in the body and mind, even when they don’t possess the same overarching “disease” [the body is a total system that needs to be treated accordingly]. Depending on where the disorder is concentrated, how far the disease process has progressed, and what other constitutions comprise the individual (although the latter shouldn’t the muddle the picture too much; the Phosphorus essence will still be apparent), they will both have burning sensations, excessive bleeding, great thirst for large quantities of cold water, cravings for cold food, canine hunger, an empty sensation felt throughout the whole abdominal cavity, a spaced-out feeling, fears of the body (especially the heart), excited nervous systems which makes them heavily reactive to external influences, magnetic eyes, angular features, extreme sympathy for others which acts as a detriment to their own welfare, a lack of boundaries, a tendency to say everything that comes to mind, etc.– amongst a slew of other guiding symptoms and characteristics that as a whole speak only to the Phosphorus constitution. Lachesis persons may fear the heart as well, but they do not fear the body because they feel they cannot escape the body like Phosphorus, nor are their mentals even remotely the same; Lachesis, even when approachable, may have a vindictive, jealous, cruel, snake-like (the remedy is made from snake venom) lower self which attacks when the type feels ne has been crossed. Phosphorus, of course, has a lower self, but it usually doesn’t concern others, nor is it abusive. Similarly, Arsenicums may have burning sensations, digestive distress (which itself will differ in attribute), and much fright, but they will be far more demanding, selfish, and controlling than Phosphorus constitutions, with an exceedingly analytical mind. All of these distinctions in groups, essences, auras of qualities culminate into the indisputable fact that personality and physical characteristics do not occur in isolation amongst peoples via genetic inheritance–that is, I have not just inherited my mom’s sympathy and my dad’s analytical mind, his rationality and her intuition totally separate from one another–but in collections of traits known as constitutions. Of course, we may differ from our parents greatly, but that facet of the argument lies beside the point (we could, for example, just grow far beyond them, have drastically different experiences, or inherit enough of their recessive genes so as to barely resemble them at all. We could also inherit a collection of traits that formulate new constitutions, different from our parents’ own). We must merely recognize that (1) people are connected to one another via certain constitutions they hold, and that (2) these constitutions exhibit the same personality and physical profiles, the same collections of traits as opposed to disjointed qualities. This reality we may use to justify an invisible force that binds us all, distinct from the physical realm but not incompatible with it, from which we may consider notions of spirituality.
Spirituality does not have to lead one to question the afterlife, it does not have to be fact-based, it does not have to be precise, nor does it have to be dogmatic. Our society–Western society–has made the unfortunate mistake of trading one “evil” (I use that term loosely!) for another: the obstinate religious fanatic has become the obstinate scientist, with no propensity to free-think in between. Science gets its kicks out of hard, stone-cold evidence, yet much of our evidence lies within. Religion gets its kicks out of dictative, inflexible values, yet many of our values lie within. Sure, the ideals both subjects purport have plenty of merit–that they do!–but they never beseech the people that must assimilate such principles into their lives what they mean to them. Case in point: the child that grows up an avid Christian wonders what’s wrong with him when he begins to discover he prefers men over women. His innermost self–perhaps uncovered with the help of homeopathy, for it too has been repressed by suffocating standards of worth– doesn’t think there’s anything wrong with him; in fact, his emotionally-whole self loves him! He knows that he is a valuable, beautiful human being just the way he is, based off of the devices of his own moral compass, not his “deviant” (and growing less deviant) sexual orientation. It is this same moral compass that gives him a negative feeling when he asserts his ego, that which compels all of life to grow. If he doesn’t appropriate the right response to expressions of his lower self, and allows his ego to subjugate him, he’s not really listening; there are many, many reasons why he might fail to tune into his own judgment calls, and the majority of them either directly or inadvertently stem from the society in which he lives, conformity being an even further indication of how evolved he is. (Even his parents, who may have influenced him greatly, have likely suffered from the same disconnect from the self).
Of course I am not bashing science or religion; our society would not be the same, nor would it advance, without them. I would, however, like to see a more personal, self-actualized spirituality supercede the latter (from which we may find that our individual values actually do incarnate universally, for our innate senses of right and wrong, when allowed to take on their most authentic forms, reflect one another), and a consolidation of rationality and intuition the former. It will certainly take time for the people to unhinge themselves from the constraints of standardized thought, yet most will find that progression is as simple as heeding, and furthering, their wisdom within… In the case of science, rigidity prevents the fruition of higher ideals, as the isolation of the “left brain” inhibits its application to abstract contemplation, stifling the manifestation of true genius. Homeopathy, for example, has long been dispelled by allopaths (yet many great homeopaths are former allopaths–still MD’s but they do not prescribe pharmaceuticals, nor do they prescribe to Western medical ideologies); all one needs to do to uncover that homeopathy is in fact real is to relinquish, at least temporarily, the method by which ne appraises authenticity, a system which itself stems from hard rationale. According to Western medical doctors (who have never used the remedies properly themselves, for if they did, they would see that homeopathy exceeds pharmaceuticals in efficacy and scope), homeopathic remedies couldn’t heal because their properties are undetectable by conventional machinery. Yet homeopathic medicine is energetic medicine, and by its very nature cannot be detected by such machinery (until now, perhaps); for allopathy’s ineptitudes, homeopathy cannot be blamed. By opening up our minds to the fact that this beautiful form of holistic medicine is real, and really heals, we are not expanding our tolerance for falsity, far-out visions, pipe dreams, or “spiritual” credence–rather, truth. The millions who have been cured and continue to be cured by homeopathy can attest to the integrity of the practice regardless. The ultimate sacrifice of self-limiting “logic” cannot be found in the lab, but within the psyches of the masses, wherein few make the connection that intuition and good sense can be one in the same.
PERHAPS UNCHARACTERISTIC SELF-REFLECTION
Sometimes choosing morality is as simple as envisioning who you want to be, in frustration of who you have always been.
Homeopathy has a way of fostering epiphanies. Those who are utterly devoid of self-reflectional skills may find themselves arriving at important conclusions while taking their remedies. I wish not to make my website too conspiratorial, but the subsequent fact cannot be denied: our world is full of suffering when it doesn’t have to be. Not only can we (often) cure major diseases for which we are taught there is none, we can prevent them from occurring in the first place merely by teaching our people how to heal before their disordered vital forces become so weakened they fall prey to cancer, AIDS, the like. The disease process is just that: a process. When we cannot restore ourselves–a totally natural and fundamental facet of the learning process on the whole, the evolution of The Soul–following some trauma which tests our lower and higher selves, checking to see that foundations are strong (unsolidified higher qualities are not quite high enough), homeopathy shows us how to recuperate. We then take these skills and apply them to future endeavors. Many of us are mildly disordered, possessing allergies, some digestive distress, and all the seemingly-minute disturbances to our vitality that invariably affect the mind, yet we think nothing of. Some of us can go longer unhappier without being affected too much physically, but contributing to the defunct social morale all the same. Restoring the people with homeopathic remedies from the get-go, at the onslaught of mild disorder, as opposed to allowing it to fester with pharmaceuticals would utterly cripple the rates of chronic illness that are currently on the rise. This notion is sad, almost unbelievable, given the current state of medical affairs as well as all the propaganda surrounding it, the norms beseeching it to remain, but true. All one needs to do to grasp the validity of my claims is go see a homeopath. Witness for yourself the miracle of the Law of Cure as opposed to the desecration of suppression. The beauty self-awareness brings. The freedom from past and current sufferings spirituality bestows upon an individual in need of wholeness.
As McCabe also notes, we are victims of ourselves (McCabe 20); even when our disordered minds are not directly self-destructive, they are inherently so. Only we stand in the way of our higher, of the higher on a macro scale. We’re all growing all of the time, together, for ourselves, and for one another; it’s time to provide the people with tools to guide them in the right direction.
OLD “LOW” EMOTIONS, & THOSE THAT HAD PREVIOUSLY EVADED YOU
You will experience low emotions while healing; this I have expressed. There is no need to worry that you will feel any lower than you already have, although you may cause a few aggravations along the way. It is best to check in with your homeopath (unless ne has a different policy) when considering taking your remedy, for ne is the expert and most of us need expertise given that we are used to the negligent method by which drugs defeat the vital force and do not listen to it. Listen to your low emotions. Work through them. You have experienced them before (for the most part; see below), even if you do not remember, although you generally will. We have very powerful memories akin to our impressions; you’ll smile at the inspiring ones that remind you of former joys, and perhaps struggle with those that test you to not only withstand, but rise above. Connect to these sentiments, low and high–they’re you, after all. Ultimately, you must learn to stop running, stop running from yourself, for there’s only you to be afraid of, and your remedy will teach you how to self-love. Remember that the vital force, when depressed, is in a constant state of healing. It has never fully healed. The burdensome emotions you grapple with while recuperating indicate what you have yet to overcome, what you have yet to learn to overcome. Make an effort to be a moral, self-aware badass (kind to you and kind to others!); few battles can touch you when you’re T-U-F-F tuff. When you never endure strife, it’s easy to pretend that you’ve got it together, that some lower quality you possess isn’t that low. Only once life tests you do you have to pull yourself up off the ground, emancipating your higher from the unfruitful bullshit you’ve manifested along the way, and for real this time; no more silver spoon, no more escapist positive thinking, no more “hardening” of your soul. Your newfound grit will still permit you to be easy-going, aware, tender (some constitutions are gentler than others), yet strong. A sensitive kind of strong. Capable, determined, resolute, and a source of stability as well as continuous love for others and yourself. Undergoing homeopathic treatment won’t ensure hardship will never challenge you again (would you even want to cruise through life at all times?), but it will make the many plights of existence a hell of a lot easier to deal with. You might even look at them as an opportunity to flourish as opposed to suffer.
An interesting facet of the restorative journey concerns emotional states that have never been felt before, or that cannot be recalled from memory, likely because a different combination of emotions associated with different aspects of your “constitutional complex” comprises them. Let me explain. Homeopathy mends part-by-part of the whole being; once again, we are all, generally speaking, comprised of multiple constitutions/remedy types and will take the remedies that are associated with those constitutions one by one. While we tend to experience a stable complex of emotions while meandering our way through life, undergoing a homeopathic regimen will highlight one facet–again, one constitution–of your overall being until it is fully healed. So as an individual comprised mainly of Phosphorus, Sulphur, Arsenicum, and Ignatia remedy types, I will only feel the uplifting of moods associated with a single one of those constitutions at a single time, while I am taking its corresponding remedy (to clarify, the remedy Phosphorus treats me, a Phosphorus constitution, homeopathically-speaking). This rationale can be used as a means to dispel any claims that homeopathy is “placebo”: there’s no way for someone to dissect nir emotional state enough to distinctly separate one facet of nir depression from another. Let me explain, again (!). To most people, depression is depression, yet homeopathic remedies will only heal certain parts of one’s overall depressive mentality one by one. Consider that Sulphur’s disordered mind is disjointed and abrupt, with random thoughts permeating the psyche at all times, which is why the constitution is often dubbed the “mad scientist” or scattered genius. Phosphorus’ impressionable mind, on the other hand, becomes exceedingly inexact when downtrodden; the type will apply one main concept to a variety of scenarios, with little penetration in between. Given that I am both a Phosphorus and a Sulphur, how was I supposed to know what angle of my depression either one of those remedies was going to heal? Furthermore, depression, as you may recall, is literally the suppression of one’s emotions. How could I know what portion of my emotions were to be restored with each remedy, especially when my mind was so off? I couldn’t remember what normal felt like! I couldn’t remember, and thus couldn’t manifest, the far-gone, so far-gone emotions that I had not felt in years and never would have been able to grasp without fourteen months (and counting) of steady healing with homeopathic remedies.
Finally (and this example is for the exceedingly-disordered): while I have progressively moved toward an identity that feels right, I experienced this odd feeling a few times with Ignatia that I didn’t know who I was. This whole process has been about finding myself, so although this sentiment was nothing new, it differed from the rest in the sense that I couldn’t find me in it. The emotion I just described, and those oddball mentalities within the same class, exist deep within the subconscious, only arising out of severe illness; they never would never have been felt by a healthy, or mildly-disordered psyche. Peculiar feelings like these, along with any fears that arise, will dissipate throughout the healing process as they reflect panic within. You can, however, ease their impact; only you will know how to–for that, you must go with the flow of your remedy, and have faith in your own restorative powers. Have faith in yourself.
OLD “HIGH” EMOTIONS, FEELING LIKE A KID AGAIN
Have you ever wished “things were simple again”? This has been a huge sentiment for me, especially when my anxiety was so bad I wanted to crawl out of my skin 24/7. I just wanted to feel like the old me, whatever that entailed, and I wanted to feel stable. I didn’t remember what it was like to feel calm, tranquil, at ease–so when I did, I appreciated merely existing more than I ever had before. It’s amazing how gratifying it is to think about other facets of life when you’ve spent so long in “fight-or-flight” mode. I would go through stages throughout healing with homeopathy; each “win” brought an improved sense of well-being, and with that, the fight to carry on. Once I reached the middle stages of my treatment with Ignatia, I finally, finally, stopped questioning whether I wanted it anymore because my emotions were all in. “Feeling like a kid again” aided in this process. Old sentiments reminded me of how things could be, how I knew they would be if I persevered–not only passively, but actively. Reminders of former simplicity in my perceptions gave me the gumption to practice all of the skills that I preach on this website. If the disease process doesn’t extend too far into your childhood, you will feel the innocence of that era, of unobstructed joy by internal influences, of the ease with which you used to engage yourself in life’s pleasures. Those who have had exceptionally shitty childhoods will finally know what it’s like to delight in the wonder of their own expansive emotional capacity. Once my run with a few remedies was over, I couldn’t believe how elated I was to merely exist… I almost can’t put it into words. It’s a feeling, a knowing that this is the way things are meant to be, and how vital I am meant to feel. My detachment not only meant I couldn’t connect with life, it meant I couldn’t connect with living beings–my friends, my family, myself. I struggled to see the light in this deep dark hole I yearned to escape, yet I didn’t even realize how truly numb I had become until I reached the boundless valley of emotional welfare. Coming back to life again, living in the beauty of every moment, is so incredibly awe-inspiring, and so incredibly sacred. Connectivity fills, whether it endures between us and someone else or us and our innermost selves. Do you know what it’s like to really love you? Sadly, so few of us do. Most will realize that they have failed to feel sincerely connected in their adult years (when the majority of people begin to disharmonize) until life nears its end and all they have to show for it is pseudo-renditions of worth: money, possessions, stature, the like. In reality–our reality–an authentic, soulful, profound perception of the world around us is everything; nothing else matters once you grasp the enormity of reality’s absence.
You may also experience some emotions that aren’t particularly “high” or extremely “low”, such as certain insecurities or feelings of inadequacy that you may have let go of, perhaps you thought you let go of, upon coming into your own. In your adult mind, you will know how to rationalize them as somewhat childlike or immature mentalities (maybe what you felt in high school!), for you have probably overcome them to a certain degree already. There’s no shame in feeling a little insecure, though; society does foster quite a bit of status-consciousness. Take this opportunity to truly give zero fucks about what anyone thinks, to exist centered, grounded, in your own space.
(particularly arising out of heavy states of disorder)
Some of the emotions you will feel throughout the healing process may take on a thematic form, and will intensify as your physical symptoms heighten (perhaps after causing an aggravation, or the mere fluctuation of healing intervals), and diminish as your physical imbalances resolve. If you’re seeking to recover from a debilitating illness, you may feel uncertain about the future–gosh, surely the now as well–especially if you’ve been low for quite a while; your healing journey will reflect these sentiments as you learn to stabilize yourself. Some constitutions are more susceptible to a feeling of insecurity, although I can imagine that most people would feel extremely discombobulated if they were extremely unwell. Instability in this context is kind of elemental; it’s like an underlying mentality thwarting all others, making the lower mentalities seem lower than they are and the higher ones not quite there. Yet it will never undermine your budding sense of wholeness, for the latter will slowly supercede the lost identity that rouses the former. You just have to give real healing time; there’s wisdom to derive from appropriately-placed perseverance. If you’re really struggling, ground yourself. What you need to do to feel more “grounded” is specific to your constitution, to you. For example, Phosphorus is afraid of the body, especially the heart, in a deep state of malady. I had no idea how to get over this dilemma–I was so, so very far from settled. But as I healed, I started to go with the flow of my remedy, to kind of “fill in the gaps” if you will, before the remedy did so for me. I sensed the tranquility beginning to engulf my body; I envisioned complacency. I envisioned grounding. If I went through a somewhat anxiety-ridden night–maybe I had just taken my remedy, and thus was healing at a relatively fast rate–I concentrated on my physical state, and subdued it. Just like that. Take it down a notch; you can do it.
If the disease process will require multiple remedies to rectify, you may also experience an intensification of sentiments associated with those other remedies, or the one you’re currently taking, around certain times of the month (perhaps with hormonal fluctuations), making you feel a little bit at the mercy of your own body as it reacts to external influences. Yes, some people do experience worsened symptoms with the phases of the moon; I’m one of them. Remember that my symptoms were extremely intense, and way over-the-top, more than most people can imagine. Thus, I noticed when they fluctuated, because I was so afraid of them! Not all constitutions are susceptible to the phases of the moon, but Sulphur constitutions, as well as Phosphorus, Pulsatilla, Lycopodium, Calcarea Carbonica, Arsenicum Album and more will find that they are. So few people will believe–I hope, only initially–that the moon cycle can be a contributing factor to the vital force’s expression of disorder. But then again, so few people believe in holistic medicine, and I, as well as all of my friends whom I am so thankful to have ushered into homeopathy, know that just ain’t the case!
When recovering from a chronic condition, you will not only gain insight into your lower qualities, but your fears. This facet of your character you would do well to pay attention to; what brings you a sense of dis-ease says a lot about what you need to rectify in this lifetime. Most of us are able to go a good majority of our lives without really fearing death until it nears, without really comprehending the mechanisms of our subconscious, without really understanding the unspoken motives behind our evasive thoughts and actions. Yet all of these conceptions are “there”–that is, present–deep within the psyche; they’re just veiled by a veiled subconscious. When in relatively good health, it’s not so hard to go about life doing what makes you happy whilst quietly avoiding what makes you uncomfortable. When critically ill, however, and the body is in a state of panic (and thus heavily disturbed by even the slightest influence), you cannot escape the sometimes-oddball mentalities that keep you from moving forward, those that may not ever come into fruition unless your vital force is intensely defunct, such as my fear of my heart. This fear is less of a trait, or a propensity, than an anxiety in and of itself, not so much a natural source of panic but indicative of my constitution nonetheless (Phosphorus is a serious escapist, averse to feeling confined, and inclines a little more toward “living outside the body” than most, thus wanting to break free of it when profoundly disordered). Other origins of panic many can identify with. The fear of rejection, for example, manifests in different degrees depending on the severity of one’s malady; it will dissipate in intensity as the healing process progresses, allowing for more fruitful concerns to propagate the mind. If you struggle with how others perceive you, actively contemplating why you need so much external love may prompt you to consider what you fail to provide for yourself. The remedy will, once again, show you the way; however, blazing your own trail–that is, by becoming less reactive to your fears when imbalanced–will make you just that more tranquil, that much less perturbed by the outside world, in a state of harmony.
SOME OF THE ABOVE, & BEYOND
Take the inspiring sentiments above (wholeness, “high” emotions, feeling like a kid again) and delight in the fact that they will remain. It’s not that you will never go through hardship; suffering is, in fact, a necessary part of life, if only because it forces us to identify our lower selves so that we may eradicate them. What will change, however, is your interpretation of life’s many offerings, low and high, when you are mentally stable and thus predisposed to grow. Essentially, you’ll expand your tolerance as you awaken your capacity to heal. I think most of us tend to suppress (aside from the fact that we’re never taught to do otherwise) not only because we’re afraid of the very nature of our traumas, the emotions and anxieties that accompany them, but because we’re afraid we can’t deal. By golly, homeopathy does a lot to quell our doubts! There is so much strength, so much resilience, so much love to be found in restoration, from which we may turn our healing outward, from which we may heal others.
You have no idea how far you can go with homeopathy, and will go effortlessly. Yet your effort is tremendously worthwhile, as you learn to build foundations on which you may stand the rest of your life. Before you begin your journey toward the cure, or if you’re on it right now, don’t fret too much about what’s going to change and what’s not changing (presumably because one of your upcoming remedies will deal with the latter); if something burdens you dearly, know that it will get better. You will figure it out. If it wasn’t a big problem, your vital force wouldn’t be trying to tell you something. You would have no disorder to heal. Emotional suppression–in effect, the continuous failure to listen–changes us, it blocks us; we become blocked not only from our deepest needs and desires (the “depths” only grow deeper with more suppression), but how we may unearth them amidst all the confusion. This confusion, of course, divorces our authentic selves from who we have been for far too long, who we no longer wish to be, for which homeopathy–not magically, but thankfully, nonetheless–shows us the way, toward the higher, away from the suffocative lower self, yet while respecting all the lessons the latter has to offer all the same.
How blocked we become from others when disordered, as well as their deepest needs and desires, distresses us just as much as our own, perhaps subdued, sense of wanting. The many walls of protection we construct backfire on a micro level and the macro scale, whether we realize our yearn to embrace the other or not. Even the souls that go through life rather unscathed–a highly uncommon premise–will grieve, whether consciously or subconsciously, for their fellow humans whose anguish permeates the collective unconscious. The highest society fosters a kind of awareness that ensures not one feels the need to suppress, nor the need to conceal; instead, the wholeness I so vehemently advocate for pertains not only to the individual, but the masses. As all rejoice in healing, and all rejoice in the warmth of kinship, we can teach one another to evolve merely by the virtue of connectivity–of being “there”, wherever that is.
- McCabe, Vinton. Let Like Cure Like. St Martins Press, 1997. Print.